November 16, 2008 going down I-5 deer in the road veered to miss dang bambi and went off the road rolled end over end thats how the door got open and my leg was out side the car when it was rolling side over side total of 6 rolls. Thank god for seat belts. The only place that wasn't crushed was right where i was sitting.
A man stopped to help me and asked me if there was someone he could call so the only # i rememberd at that moment was Tony M. So he gave him a call to come get my things as he arrived I think i was already on the stretcher, headed for the ambulance and i saw him and reached out my hand and said"Tony please come here i am scared" Well he didn't come he just turned and walked away.
The man that
was helping asked if there was a family member they should call i gave my brothers # . And he and my sister were waiting at the hospital for me . After 3 hours of surgery my family was there. thank god . There's no way i could have gone through that alone. I was in so much pain and all i could think about was why isn't Tony m here? I even called him and asked him if he was going to come to the hospital to see me. He answerd with a short "no" ( I learned later Tony M had been told to stay away from me by my family, As a test of his devotion- Cause in my family if you love someone and they were in that situation, Nothing would hold them back from seeing the person that they love or noone. Well he failed that test unfortunately, And now everybody hates him with reason) But what do I do when I still love him? Well I do know this I'ts getting to be less & less but will it ever go away and set me free.So now I have had surgery on my ankle got my cast off a week or so ago it is now Jan9,09 Haven't been able to walk since the accident mom took care of me dfor a while . I THINK I"M GOING CRAZY I just want to be able to walk again on my own.
Now surgery is coming up on Jan 19, 09 cause i have cancer.......... When will it get better. Why wouldn't he just let me end it on Nov 16, 08 I guess because he was teachng me a lesson. Finally hurt myself to show me that he decides who comes and goes and when they come and go.
All I can say now Is I am so sorry I wish i wouldn't have done this to my self. I can't walk and have no car. I'm Just F****d and i'ts all my fault. please get better soon . I need it tooooooooo!
So if anyone who reads this can shed some light please lightme up i need it.
Linda b
